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I want to change the world! (HAPPY NEW YEAR!
... so I start changing it.

Biggest Thanks and Much Love for 2008 :).

My year went by like this...

I was under a canopy of fireworks when the world declared a change of year. After that, I found myself lying on my chest with one hand cradling a bottle of piss-tasting beer and the other rotting with one cig. And I was crying. Because while I was lit up by numerous fireworks embedding the sky with colors, I called up my ex-lover and she deliberately told me that she wanted me out of her life. Happy new year, yes? And after a while, I sent a message to the other who I liked and still do, only with the benefits of love now.

And my entire year has been like that, bad things and good things in one package. It was not so bad.

January is composed...
...sneaky meet-ups with Jo, Jean and Ro-an
...Jo holding my hand for the first time because she did not have the words to tell me that she likes me. (Plus other things I better not mention here.)
...an ex running after me.
...another ex coming back to Jo.
...almost losing Jo.
... meeting Anonymous Texter.. hello to you!
... losing my UP dreams. (Maghaharap pa tayo)

February is composed of...
... winning the Graduation Song Competition. We March On woohoo!
... Happy happy Valentine's Day!

March is composed of...
... Jo saying I love you for the first time on my birthday.
... the best birthday evaaaah!
... 4C bringing me to my happiest!
... Graduating with awards. :D (And getting by Physics without studying. HELL TO THAT.)

April and May are composed of...
... start of the best summer!
... making it official with Jo. :)
... taking up classes in UP.
... Batangaaaas with Jo, Ea and Prince.

June-December months are composed of...
... growing up.
... meeting new friends.
... getting into vices.
... ART ART AND ART!
... fighting and working for my dreams.
... driiiiiving.
... coming-back anonymous texter WE KNOW YOU
... keeping up with 4C!!
... Jo's debut hahahaha!
... better, better days for my family. :D
... learning.
... coming back to God.
... JO DAAAAAAYYYYYSSSSSS

So forgive me for the lack of my words. My mind cannot contain every detail that made up this 2008. But entirely, I can say that 2008 has not been cruel. It could have been better. But given any chance, I would embrace it entirely in the refusal of any alterations. This year, I changed a lot, for better and worse in different streets of my being. I did not get to write as much but I grew more. I grew up but I saw the importance of keeping LIFE in you. I learned to choose to fight for what your soul needs and what your heart loudly shouts of. I learned that your dream is yours and that you can do whatever you want to do with it, like your own piece of clay. This year proved to me that there is always coming back in leaving. In fact, it even proved to me that not all people leave. It also proved to me that chances of getting your dreams can runaway from you BUT HELL TO THAT, RUN AFTER THOSE. Or rather, get some other chances! Madami diyan promise! This year, I found the corners of my soul that, when pricked, would kill me.

I saw so much cruelty this year. But as I would always say, I choose not to drive along with it. What I did and what I would always do, I will go the other way, the better one. I may be a bitch but sometimes, I still choose to know better. This year, I decided to add up a little kindness to this world, a little heart, a little smile. I am have become a grown-up myself as well but I keep the poet and the artist, here, right here with me. As I have not done before, I chose to appreciate the people around me more. I decided to give my family the value they deserve. For my friends, I believed in them more and loved them more. This year, I chose to love. I may lose all the wealth in the world but love, that's what I won't lose. That's what the world will never lose. And that, I have proved very well with the occurrences of 2008. I saw it on tv, read from a book or a magazine, seen right in front of me... love is exists. We just need a little more effort to make it evident. A man giving food to an unfortunate one. A grandson helping his grandmother. A husband buying his wife a gift, with his own choice. A girlfriend hugging her boyfriend. A stranger smiling at another. You know, those little acts of kindness. That's why I chose to love a little more. I want the world to see that even with the cruelty, love is still there. And it will never, ever die. I show the world love the best I could because I want it to see that this world is too damn beautiful to be given up on. Every damned day and every frkn start of the year, people, everyone... we wish for change without even knowing that all of us can do something. But after all, we just need to smile more. Hug people more. And appreciate more.

Showing and giving out love, that's what I will continue to do in the years to come.

And maybe you should do that too. :)

Happy New Year everyone! :D